When I decided to become a parent, nothing could have prepared me for just about everything that has to do with being a parent. If you think it stops at simply raising a child to be the best that they can be -- you're wrong! And what's more is that you'll never understand until you bring a tiny little life into the world.
Today it struck me a little hard that now, for the rest of my life, I will not just be worried about the potential harm coming my way, to my mind or to my body. I have two daughters to think about now, too. Every little bit of pain they feel, I feel too. It's almost overwhelming to even think about pain they have experienced or that they will experience in the future.
I accidentally clipped not one but two of Squishie's fingers this morning while I was trying to trim her nails. I have done this to Tiny before but even though it made her bleed a little she didn't mind at all. However this morning Squishie did cry out and had a few tears. It was unbearable to me! And then -- I accidentally did it AGAIN! After that I quit. I can't help but feel so guilty. Of course she only cried for a few seconds before reaching for a toy and forgetting it completely. But the sadness has stuck with me. I don't want my baby to hurt, ever. There is so much truth to the often-said phrase, "That hurt mama more than it hurt baby!"
We will never be able to protect our children from everything. It can be so easy to live in fear of the things that will hurt them far more than nail clippers. Even when I look back to my dating days, it enrages me to think that some day my daughters' hearts will be broken by boys! But such is life. I just need to make sure they know I will be there for them always.
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